What do you do when you visit a place for only a bit and you right away realize you will not be there long enough? That has happened to me. I KNOW deep down in my heart that 3 months is just not near enough time! I feel like a child who has just started eating her cake and after taking one bite, it is taken from her. Her appetite is up and she yells lustily because, well, she sure isn’t done eating her cake! She wants more, much more, but she can’t have it! That is how I feel about leaving Bangladesh.
Leaving behind all these beautiful, wonderful people will almost break my heart. I already get a sinking feeling when I think about it. I don’t want to leave. I’m so happy. If only we could freeze this.
But if we would freeze the time now, then I would miss out on the next adventure God is preparing for me. He has a plan for me. A great exciting plan. Something so big, that if I would freeze my life now, I would actually end up being stunted. I’d never grow into the person God wants me to be. He put me here, in this 3 mo. slot for a reason. Maybe I’ll never know why, but I do know that it’s what God wanted. And whatever HE wants is perfect in the end. I guess, if never returning and having my heart splintered and spread all over the creation is God’s will, then it will end up perfect and I am willing to see where he leads me.
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